All this time repressing my thoughts and feeling haha it feels great to release them in expressing. That’s now kinda my understanding of self-expression and the funny thing is as kids we’ve done that, we were present in the moment and expressed what we felt and said what we said as we were able but then we’ve learned and developed attitudes to protect ourself and distance us from others through parents and eduction and our so called society. At least this goes for me I build a logical shell around me not letting anything out or in, tried to please others for acceptance and not showing what I want or need.. but becoming aware of that everything is shifting.
It’s still kind of wobbly being present in the moment and expressing what is currently up my mind. I feel kind of sad that I wasn’t able to see this years earlier it seems that it just wasn’t the right time back then, this time was needed to start my recovery so I’m just being grateful for.
Currently I’m experiencing many synchronic moments so I think that path is the right one, especially because there is no right or wrong path. A path is a path therefore nor good nor bad.
Peace. Breath deep.