Woaah, what is this?

Greetings people.

Yesterday just confirmed that I’m getting what I wish for. It’s really fun how the dots of the post moments connect to the now.

So when I’m not on the right “track” it’s probably still the right track, eventhough one is thinking it is not. But it’s maybe something you wish for yourself to happen to experience that experience. So things are getting funny right now, starting to roll down the hall.

 

Keep on breathing deep and improving yourself.

Your potential isn’t measurable don’t let it get distracted by unnecessary, but if you do it’s necessary haha, so be it. Don’t fit into any pattern given by any other than yourself and yourself is probably not that what you think it is, because most of the thoughts and idea are from other people, it’s kind of a fact that one is made of the environment they’re in, family, friends, society, but it’s up to oneself to decide. It’s not only up to oneself but also a responsibility to do so.

PS: Humans are so strange, haha. Some don’t know who they are, when nobody is showing them or giving them tools for the mind to find out.

See you around.

brealche

 

 

Bugging my mind

Greetings people.

I just felt like writing so here am I. Tried to sleep but couldn’t stop thinking just now so bringing stuff down here so it’s not bugging my mind anymore.

When one is none? But we got our current ego how can the one become one again and change to something?

Thru moving in the moment? But this moving is kinda hard. Think these downs have to happen, otherwise no movement and no change would happen.

But still it’s kinda annoying, especially because I get angry at myself when realizing things which I should have noticed before.
I mean what is this?

Just gonna live with it, I guess. hahaha

Well that’s it. Just some thoughts coming up, didn’t want to write everything.

 

Enjoy your time and breath deep guys.

brealche

Moonshine, sitting on a tree

I feel the solid branch of the tree supporting my back.

Perfectly fit for me.

Laying in the tree crown.

While the moon shines in Libra.

Weighing thoughts out.

Thoughts created by attaching to the physical world.

Attach emotions to it.

Have not been really aware of it.

Not as I do now.

I’m different from yesterday.

What am I? Who wants to know, someone asked from behind.

Not found an answer yet.

I’m just me.

With memories and thoughts that grow dim.

Building the root.

For the now.

What will I be tomorrow?

Different from now..

What is this all?

 

Enjoy the morning, night and day, wherever you are..

Breath deep the air, hold the wish to live, to manifest.

Give it away exhaling long and slow so it can come back.

Once again.

brealche

 
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Typhoon

Greetings people.

I’m constanly meditating before going to bed, it became my practice in the evening and sometimes in morning. I feel more at ease, my body is not trembling, my mind scatters around but I’m centered watching the typhoon of images, thoughts and emotions whirl. It became really fun to sit and just watch and from time to time concentrating my attention on those things, while still being more or less dettached, depends on the topic.

So for me it also became important to think about not only thoughts but also the believe system behind, I use for different topic.

What I/we believe is how it is seen then by me/us? Even if not rational.

I manage to control what negative or positive thoughts I allow to go through my mind and enter my unconsciousness.

I think the thing about our mind is that we think, we think, but indeed our unconsciousness does, it belongs to the body but is also mind.

It’s like a cycle and it somehow seems paradox to me, saying that the unconsciousness mind giving the consciousness mind thoughts to think about and categorize, judge and give back the result to the unconsciousness. When the impression are entering our minds for example as kids nothing is judged all is at it is. No separation between the things because they’re all the same. The older we get then the more judging and separation happen. I think when we reached a certain age it is our duty to get back on the track of what we first started taking the responsibility not only for us but also for our environment.

Well still hard to convert these thoughts into words, but I’m getting closer, so that they are understood. Hope you enjoy.

 

Peace. Breath deep. Namaste _/{}\_

brealche

🙂

 

 

Strange dream

Greetings people.

today I really got a strange dream and I’m thinking about what this dream/my unconsciousness wanted to tell. I think I got the message but see for yourself and maybe leave a comment.

Well it started in a town where I have been sometime before in my dreams. I followed a friend of mine a house. When I entered the building I saw normal stairways, my friend walked so fast it was hard to follow. After a few steps the surrounding changed, it looked like in Harry Potter, stairways in all direction, no gravity. My friend did some parkour moves and left me. I somehow was then sitting on the windowsill and could look down. I would have been fallen down when I moved and who knows where that would have ended.
So I looked down and saw a brown bear, also afraid of falling down. I couldn’t move, but I shouted something like “It’s OK. You’re not falling down.”, he looked up and saw me. A path opened so the bear could walk to my windowsill. I got a bit afraid because he was still a predator. But I just surrendered and allowed him to come to me. He came near and I petted him. His color then turned white the moment I touched him. Everything changed and the environment disappeared.

I found myself then sitting in a speedboat. I was not alone. I still know that there was a female person with me. We could see the ocean from the glass window inside of the boat. We were moving very fast but then the time kind of stopped, like in a blurring motion we were still moving. Two Dolphins appeared and also came near. It looked like they were smiling, open hearted and happy. Then I saw something dark in the water it looked like blood or oil, some dark fluid in the water below us but we were leaving that behind and it got thinner and thinner.

We landed on an island. The girl told me to go ahead.

I agreed and then I let me drive in a direction. But then I noticed I didn’t know where we were heading to. So I left the car, thanked the driver and started to walk back. The environment looked like it was colonized by the US and Russia and they were allies, everywhere was military crates filled with weapons. I came through a village and I saw a dog barking at me and then starting to running towards me I was kind of scared then, but the dog just ran by and passed without really noticing me. Than I saw some little black bears, which were hold as pets or something like that.

I then moved on and saw a bunch of people surrounding a strange object/machine. There were two people presenting that object. So I got closer to take a better view of it. They saw that I was new, told me that the object could change my behavior and the only thing I had to do was looking in the light that was coming out of it. It could change positively or negatively. They thought I would not believe them and wanted me to try that out but I told them I know that it would work. But I didn’t want myself to be changed that way. I also told them that I think it only is working on people because of the way we perceive things and how our brain works. 90% of our perception is perceived through our eyes so no wounder that would affect us.

Then a new person appeared and told me that he is trying to sabotage them so that they are not using this machine anymore. But they are repairing it faster and faster everytime he sabotages it. So I was tangled between two lines. I was in the centre or maybe I’am the centre.

I’m sure it’s kind of confusing hope you find it still interesting, because I do.

 

Breath deep. Peace. See you soon

brealche

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Quote ‘3’

“The word ‘person’ comes from the Latin word ‘persona’, which referred to the masks worn by actors in which sound would come through. The ‘person’ is the maskーthe role you’re playing. And all your friends and relations and teachers are busy telling you who you are and what your role in life is.” ~Alan Watts

Greetings people.

I totally agree with this quote, that’s exactly the reason why I kind of struggle now when leaving this mask behind. Letting myself be seen.

Currently I have such an insight to all things concerning me.

How I become what I’am and not what I’am, I let my little self be fooled by the surroundings back then and closed myself of this world and put on a mask. So that everyone appreciate me and accepts me instead of me accepting and appreciating myself.

I think I’m kind of repeating myself with my posts but I don’t care I write what’s on my mind and it’s for me it’s like I’m trying to convince myself. I still can’t believe it really, got some work to do.

It’s just so funny to see this in the now in this moment.

Breath deep. Peace

brealche

Releasing

Greetings people.

All this time repressing my thoughts and feeling haha it feels great to release them in expressing. That’s now kinda my understanding of self-expression and the funny thing is as kids we’ve done that, we were present in the moment and expressed what we felt and said what we said as we were able but then we’ve learned and developed attitudes to protect ourself  and distance us from others through parents and eduction and our so called society. At least this goes for me I build a logical shell around me not letting anything out or in, tried to please others for acceptance and not showing what I want or need.. but becoming aware of that everything is shifting.

It’s still kind of wobbly being present in the moment and expressing what is currently up my mind.  I feel kind of sad that I wasn’t able to see this years earlier it seems that it just wasn’t the right time back then, this time was needed to start my recovery so I’m just being grateful for.

Currently I’m experiencing many synchronic moments so I think that path is the right one, especially because there is no right or wrong path. A path is a path therefore nor good nor bad.

Peace. Breath deep.

brealche

🙂

 

 

Cloud

Greetings people.

I started to practice yoga and meditate more frequently, currently my mind and my thoughts are just constanly changing there is no real grounding by now.

Thoughts I did have yesterday are becoming none relevant or I’m just thinking about the thoughts differently.
I’m filtering out any thoughts, ideas and societies expectations(which have been implemented in my mind) that could harm myself or people I do care about. Probably that’s why it’s constanly changing because I do get different perspectives through meditation.

I’m going to let all that go and keep a balance and authentic for myself so my surroundings become more balanced. Not letting me be overwhelmed by negative or positive thougts just giving them a space where they I’m free to express.

Especially becoming authentic and more in tune with myself is one of the things I’m currently coming up with. I’m feeling more free to express and I’m not that invested in others perception of myself anymore.
There is still a way to go.

Breath deep. Peace

brealche
🙂