Inhale.. Exhale..

Greetings people.
I never have tried something like this before so enjoy reading.

Sitting still. Inhaling.

Mind is calming.
Thought scatter as light.

Currently a constant to and fro.

From negative to positive.

But all is illusive.
Existent and non-existent.
Reality just the perception.
Like a mirage.
Thinking thoughts which are not real, not there yet.
Now not relevant.
Difficult to see thru but it desolves.
Clearing the mind. Exhaling.
Moment of silence.

No inhale, no exhale, no thought, no perception.

Moment of nothing nor happiness nor sadness but one.

One in a second. Like a tree just being.

Taking it all in.
Accepting no holding on whatever is on the mind.
Not possible to hold the breath.
Giving back.
Gratefully to be able to see and feel with all senses.

Not possible to leave here.

Constanly repeating. But feels different everytime.
Peace. Breath deep and be deep none can see the bottom it is all illusive.


Greetings people.

I just remembered a poem from a game I once played.

When the war of the beasts brings about the world’s end
The goddess descends from the sky
Wings of light and dark spread afar
She guides us to bliss, her gift everlasting

Act I
Infinite in mystery is the gift of the goddess
We seek it thus, and take it to the sky
Ripples form on the water’s surface
The wandering soul knows no rest

Act II
There is no hate, only joy
For you are beloved by the goddess
Hero of the dawn, Healer of worlds
Dreams of the morrow hath the shattered soul
Pride is lost
Wings stripped away, the end is nigh

My friend, do you fly away now?
To a world that abhors you and I?
All that awaits you is a somber morrow
No matter where the winds may blow
My friend, your desire
Is the bringer of life, the gift of the goddess
Even if the morrow is barren of promises
Nothing shall forestall my return

Act IV
My friend, the fates are cruel
There are no dreams, no honour remains
The arrow has left the bow of the goddess
My soul, corrupted by vengeance
Hath endured torment, to find the end of the journey
In my own salvation
And your eternal slumber
Legend shall speak
Of sacrifice at world’s end
The wind sails over the water’s surface
Quietly, but surely

Act V (made by Genesis)
Even if the morrow is barren of promises
Nothing shall forestall my return
To become the dew that quenches the land
To spare the sands, the seas, the skies
I offer thee this silent sacrifice

I hope you enjoyed reading.

Peace. Breath deep




Greetings people.

I just did some yoga and meditation and breathed deep. πŸ™‚
So now I’m reading a book the title is ‘Become what you are’ – Alan Watts and I just want to share some lines with you.

It is made of consciousness and mind.
It is made of life and vision.
It is made of the earth and the waters.
It is made of air and space.
It is made of light and darkness.
It is made of desire and peace.
It is made of anger and love.
It is made of virtue and vice.
It is made of all that is near: It is made of all that is afar.

It is made of all.

Breath deep. Peace



A gift?

Greetings people.

It’s like mind is constanly thinking and these thoughts need a while to be transferred into my emotions. But since I started yoga and meditation they’re starting to flow more frequently and express themself in a better way.

Imagine it like starting to spin a wheel (Sanskrit m., ΰ€šΰ€•ΰ₯ΰ€°, cakra, engl. Chakra).

Well and indeed it’s spinning.


I’m still reflecting thoughts, emotions and actions from the last months but lately my mind became more calm and grateful.

Every situation is a gift and is given to you for a reason not to hold onto it but it wants you to realize something that’s probably so obvious that when your frequency is low you seem to cannot see through.

Therefore you have to move out of your comfort zone, out of the thinking and controlling ourself not to think negative words or use them in any sense, clear out the mess in your head and appreciate yourself for who you are.

Become what you are.

Recently I just learned the ujjayi breath it gives you so much energy helping to spin your wheel unhooking from thoughts and senses. To me it doesn’t sound like snoring like some are saying, it sounds more like you being at the beach or you yourself being the wave/ocean.

It helps you to calm your mind, less thinking, more breathing. Being in the moment and being the body you are and breath.

Imagine you inhale(through the nose) and pulling the water back, hold the wave/breath for a few seconds and let it slowly go as you exhale(through the nose and sounds like a “haaah”). Repeat it for a few times and feel the breath.
Simply enjoy yourself and express that joy and other will see you, the real you not the mask you’re putting on.
β€œI’m resolving to just wing it and see what happens.”
― Bill Watterson 

Peace and breath deep.






Greetings People.

Yesterday I went toΒ  my first Satsang (Sanskrit: ΰ€Έΰ€€ΰ₯ΰ€Έΰ€™ΰ₯ΰ€—, sat = means true; sanga = company). It’s being in the company of truth or the good, we sat together in a group spiritual students.

We recited and sang mantras to Ganesha, Shiva and other goddess followed by music. Since I just started I don’t remember the names of the instruments nor the mantras.. But I did feel the “energy” if you can call it like that.

We also did some yoga and mediated to feel our inner self.

We also had the topic of liability and forgiving. We are all liable for the things happening around us (livestock farming, war, racism and the list goes on and on) and we should take our part and be the change we want to have in our environment.

We had to choose one topic or things we thought about where we have failed in our lifes and repeat the following lines in our minds.

I’m sorry.

Please forgive me.

I love you.

Thank you.


I felt so much gratitude after this. For myself. For the people around. For the world.

It was accepting my whole being even if it was just for that moment. I still got this feeling in my chest.


Hope you enjoyed reading.





Greetings people.

Yesterday I felt like doing curry again.

I went buying the ingredients and this is what you need to do this dish.

  • 500g Fine Chinese noodles
  • 400g Coconut milk
  • 2 x Carrots
  • 1 x Aubergine
  • 1 x Zucchini
  • 6 x mushrooms
  • 100g sprouts
  • curry paste
  • lemon grass
  • coriander
  • black pepper
  • oil

How to prepare:

  1. First mix the coconut milk with the curry paste and the other spices.
  2. Cut the vegetables into pieces easy to chew.
  3. Put a drop of oil into the pan (I used linseed oil) and start adding the vegetables I began with the ones who I thought which would take the longest to be cooked and stir them
  4. After a few minutes add the curry sauce now cover the pan with the lid and lower the heat.
  5. Take a new pot, add water and heat it until it’s boiling. Now you add the fine Chinese noodles and wait for 2-4 min.
  6. When the noodles are finished you mix them up with the curry


I couldn’t take it and I started to eat next time you’ll get a cleaner shot/photo of the dish I do. πŸ™‚

Enjoy the cooking and eating. Have fun creating.







Greetings people.

I started to practice yoga and meditate more frequently, currently my mind and my thoughts are just constanly changing there is no real grounding by now.

Thoughts I did have yesterday are becoming none relevant or I’m just thinking about the thoughts differently.
I’m filtering out any thoughts, ideas and societies expectations(which have been implemented in my mind) that could harm myself or people I do care about. Probably that’s why it’s constanly changing because I do get different perspectives through meditation.

I’m going to let all that go and keep a balance and authentic for myself so my surroundings become more balanced. Not letting me be overwhelmed by negative or positive thougts just giving them a space where they I’m free to express.

Especially becoming authentic and more in tune with myself is one of the things I’m currently coming up with. I’m feeling more free to express and I’m not that invested in others perception of myself anymore.
There is still a way to go.

Breath deep. Peace




Greetings people.

Yesterday I just started to draw again and this is what I created within an hour. I neglected my drawing the past few years that’s why I’m gonna start again.

If you have anything you want me to draw for you I would be glad to do so.


Breath deep. Peace!